A young lover's midnight confession

To you...

There is so little that I can do for you in exchange for all you've given me. No, not just the gifts that I hold so close to myself nor the words you've written me. Its the emotions, the clarity and the love you've made me feel for the last four years. Its a long time you know? Isn't it almost unbelievable when someone thinks about it. No , I would've never imagined myself to get this lucky, but I am. I was naive never to realize that all I wanted, all I needed, all I ever wished for was there with me all along. I thank god for you every single day that I breathe in this world.
There is so much to say my love, so much to do, but so little time. Every part of me aches to think you away from me, yet the worst part is as every second ticks by, the time nears for us to go back to our daily lives while craving each other's presence.There is something I want to confess though. Something which in many ways might sound hollow, but isn't. There is nothing, nothing in this whole wide array of the world that I would not do for you. Yes, I realize how vulnerable and exposed I am to you, but this weakness of mine is something I proudly accept.
Won't you agree that smile is something which we all consider as beautiful? And it is. I know it is. Yet, there is a contradiction that brews in my heart. It seems strange to me, a smile can mean so much, can hold so many emotions... How can anyone describe it as just - 'beautiful' ? Maybe it is just me or the reality that there is something in your smile which is more than just beautiful. Again, I realize it all sounds really cheesy, but trust me, it's something which I am realizing while sitting on our friend's study table, which goes to show, I think about you irrespective of the circumstances or the places I am at. You've become an inseparable part of me.    

You know, I can't help but laugh at myself sometimes. Why do I say that ? Well, there is something that your love does to me that I cannot describe. I am sitting in this silent room with the sound of nothing but my pen scratching on this piece of paper, writing emotions. It doesn't make any sense, my heart dictates to me these words which I am supposed to dedicate to you. The thoughts just pour out like an endless waterfall flowing till eternity. Yes, that is how much I am in love with you. 

Is love madness ? To me, it is. A person sacrifices everything for a their beloved. I know, most people call it - Impractical, immature, naive, vague and what not! But the truth is, if love is madness, I can safely say that yes, I am mad for you.
Fear. The word itself is dreadful isn't it ? Its usual though, with great love comes great insecurities. I do not need to  state them, the last thing I want to do is make this very special moment, depressing. However, I don't have anything to fear. I have become numb to that dark emotion. It has never happened to me before and I am confused. How can it be possible that a person makes someone forget the most morbid emotion there is in this world? You must really be something special. Our heart beats for each other, our souls complete each other, our love true to its cause.

 There is no fear in my life anymore, there is just us.

Now I come to the last part of my allegory for the simple reason that dawn is breaking and I am soon going to be in your embrace. A year. That is how long we have had to wait for this moment... But a week is what we have for ourselves before we bid each other farewell. It sometimes pains me to think of the distances. I know it does the same too. I know it is a really rough statement, but I would've kidnapped you and kept you with me.(I wouldn't do it don't worry! ... Or maybe I will?!) Anyway I wish I could handcuff the hands of time and stop the sun from setting just to live these moments a bit longer. In no way was I joking when I said it was a kiss-worthy moment when I was sitting beside you. I would really have kissed you. But then I admit being farouche and timid about it... Its been so long since I've seen you, even looking in your eyes makes me blush. I don't know if you would've approved of that. Anyhow, its not really about kissing, its about showing how much I love you. I wish I could show my love for you in a million different ways, I really do. I love you, that's all I can think of right now. You were right you know, calling you my girlfriend wouldn't really do you justice. We are so much more than that. Every night I think about you before I go to sleep(No not just because I find you irresistible.) because I feel an incomprehensible sense of happiness fill me. Its the same every morning. Waking up to your thoughts gives me Strength... Hope... Life. You are the first and the last one on my mind, my heart and my life. So a last question remains to be answered. Is there anything in this world I would trade you for ? ... Are you crazy ? Why would I want to trade 'my life' for anything else? You are invaluable to me, the beat of my heart. You are the one.

I love you.
Always
and
Forever.