We all have our own fears and apprehensions as well as our own strengths and inspirations. An optimist views any challenge as an opportunity to grow and develop while a pessimist only compares it to a liability. It is vital though to have a definite perception of anything in life. As times we are unsure of what we are doing or think about something. It is in many ways a flaw, depicting weakness of character.
Maths is the bane of my existence. I was never really interested in it , nor did I appreciate the noble art of Mathematics. I had always loved English and excelled in it. The very idea of solving a math problem seemed boring and slumberous; Whereas learning English was pleasing, satisfying and pleasurable. English was the oceanic view off of a rooftop for me, I could keep myself occupied with it for hours while Math was the displeasing view of a slaughterhouse. I am by no means suggesting that those who love Maths are some sort of butchers, it is a mere hyperbole to show you the extent to which I detest it. In my own ways, I knew I was born for humanities - Arts. There is a subtle aura in the field which pulls me towards it. Drawing , Literature, Music, Acting, Dance... I love it all, though some of these things are beyond my capacity to do. Yet, I love the power of expression and liberty that it gives to a human being. There are no hard and fast rules, nothing that holds you back from casting your emotions in front of this world.
Funnily enough, in today's Indian society, those who pursue arts as a subject in their higher secondaries or graduation level, are somewhat seen as outcasts. Why is it funny you may ask! In a country which is full of golden history of stupendous artists with artwork which the entire planet admires, there is an inferiority complex among many arts student just because the society views them as 'too dumb to study anything else'. I might be wrong in my sense of what the society really feels, but trust me, the look on peoples faces and change of tone whenever they learn that a person is studying arts, is something which really makes me feel so.
None the less, I had a long hard thought about my future and finally arrived at the conclusion that I wanted to do Journalism. It fulfilled all my ambitions. I would be in the world of media where every word uttered and written counts. I'd be contributing to this world, returning my part of care it had given me so far. Most of all , I'll be making a difference. It's my drive, my passion , my dream to fulfill.
After all this time I have come to realize that its not about doing something which fetches you heavier paychecks or pockets you fame. It's about doing something that your heart desires. Its about doing something which would complete you and give your existence a meaning. And when you finally do that, its not a job anymore. Its an excuse for living life the way you want it to be.
sahi hai yaar (y)...
ReplyDelete